Daddy's list of missing me

 As it was with you kitten, picking ten things that I miss most about you is actually hard. Truly hard. Because there aren’t ten things - there are ten thousand. Ten million. Tens of millions of millions. So many small things that I think about daily that make me smile and laugh and make my hands ache to hold you and eyes ache to see you and heart ache to have you in my life.

I could wax poetic forever about the ways that you are missed, but I guess I’ll just have to do that in a month when we are together.

In the meantime, here are the ten biggest things that I miss about my kitten

1. The way you make me smile

When I am with you, I am constantly smiling. Laughing. Overjoyed with a joyful fullness. You constantly make me happy kitten when we are together. Our chats are interesting, your behaviors are wonderful or appalling (and then I get to put on my daddy pants, which although I am angry on the outside, also makes me smile), you being sexy makes me smile, I feel true happiness when we are together and I know you can see that all over my face.

2. your spirit

There are three sides of my kitten that I love:

• Adult kitten. This is the girl I love talking with, debating with, chatting bullshit with. We go out on dates, we deal with problems, we talk about our lives and our futures and things that matter and it makes me happy that I can support you and help you deal with issues and grow and be a rock that you need. That makes me happy.

• Little girl kitten. Cute and playful and eager and excited and wonderful. I want to eat her up and hold her and have her be cute with me and play with me all the time. She’s so amazing and doing things like walking through Disney Land or watching trolls or just being silly, it’s perfect. 

• Submissive kitten. We’ll get to your submission in a second, because it is something I specifically love about you and it gets its own section, but you in submissive pleasing mode switches me into Dom mode always, even when I’m not in the headspace, just watching you present yourself makes me want to take your leash and take control. It’s a part of me I love and I love it more when I am with you. 

The parts of your spirit are a gift to me and I appreciate all of them equally and differently. 

3. your body

I miss touching you, manhandling you, hitting you, throwing you, using you, abusing you, making you into my own personal doll and plaything. I miss how you feel when we are together. When you’re here, I cannot keep my hands off you and not having you physically with me when I want to touch you at night or stroke your hair when you’re near me or push you down onto the floor to suck my cock is honestly a pain that physically hurts me sometimes. I wish you were here right now.

4. Specific parts of your body.

Different than your presence as a whole, I love that I own your parts that I enjoy using most. Your mouth when it’s wrapped around my cock, your cunt when it’s wet and aching and I’m behind you and you’re trying to thrust at me to go deeper, your ass when I take you and stretch you and fill you, your tits which belong to me and me along as I suck and lick and bite and take them whenever I want them and when I grab them, you breathe in quick air like you do and lose your headspace and surrender to my touch and my control. Equally important to your body as a whole are the part of your body that I like and miss using the most.  

5. Our alone time

You know what I miss about you, kitten? Our quiet times. Our times when we’re laying together, or playing board games, or watching a movie, reading to you, or doing nothing. I know it’s cliche to say, but it feels like the whole world disappears and all that matters is Daddy and kitten together wherever we are. Those moments are so important to me and even being on the phone with you and being alone isn’t enough, I need you here with me.

6. Dates

I love our dates, I miss going out to do things with you and build new experiences with you. Whenever I think back to my favorite moments with you, it always starts with out alone time (which is why that one came first) and then builds to bigger, more explosive moments - us eating sushi out, us watching movies and doing dirty things, us going to see theater, us exploring Chicago, us just doing things. Doing things with you makes me happy. I miss it. 

7. Hypnotizing you

Making trances for you is lovely and it fills me deeply to know my voice and my commands are in your head at all times. However, it’s nothing compared to trancing you in real life, watching your eyes change, watching you lose focus and fall into my words, knowing the full control I have over your body and your mind. Having that experience in person is one of the most fulfilling and erotic moments of my life, which is incredible sexy and important to me.

8. Fucking you

I already talked about your body and your mind, but jesus, I miss fucking you, hard, taking you when I want you, having you get wet at my touch and just thrusting into you so I can take you and making you cum and cum and cum and then beg for more. I wasn’t sure I could fuck you every day when we were in Mexico just due to bodily exhaustion and it never was an issue, I wanted you all the time and still want more. 

9. Kisses

I also miss kisses with you. They’re different than any other kisses I have in my life. Sometimes they’re quick and cute, sometimes they’re deep and hungry, sometimes they’re longing and filled with a need for more. Kissing you is one of my favorite things to do in this world and if I could kiss you daily, for the rest of my life, it still wouldn’t be enough. 

10. Kitten

I miss my kitten. I told you, there are too many things to miss, so I’m ending with saying I miss you, all of you, daily, every moment, forever. Having you be this far away from me for this long has hurt me more than I knew it would, and I already knew it would hurt me. I can’t wait to have you in my arms again. I need it, crave it daily. I crave you kitten. Come to me soon, any longer and I may die.

I love you kitten. All of you.